This is my last week before having to go back to work. I remember in the begining I was dying and praying for the three months to pass so I could go back to work and get a break... sigh... and just like I knew in the back of my mind that I would... I'm dreading it. Not so much the work part... but the not being with the babies part.
This is going to be very hard. Very hard on all of us... Pablo will be staying with the babies three days a week, then the other two they'll stay with a sitter till I can pick them up from work. I'm worried that he'll get stressed from being alone with the babies for so long... even though he's totally awesome with the babies. (I have mentioned before that I'm nuts and I worry about EVERYTHING, right?) I'm worried that the babies will freak with the change. I'm worried that they'll feel sad or feel abandoned. :( My poor little munchkies. :'( I feel like a shitty mom for having to go back to work.
Can't keep writing about it or I'll start to cry again.
On other topics of importance... Sold my car (two door Scion Tc) and STILL in search for a new car... trying for a CRV... but not having ANY luck. Did I mention that I go back to work next week?? And we don't have another car??? I feel the little ball of stress in the center of my chest getting a tad bit bigger with each day that passes. YAY stress!!!
Oh and the "tooth." I don't really know if it's a tooth anymore, though if it's not I have no idea what else it could be. It's still there.... but hasn't grown anymore. I should read about that, don't you think? I'm so sleepy. Ahhhh I'm wandering too much. NEED TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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