why is it so hard to blog??

i have every intention of coming on here and writing stuff so that we'll have something to look back on and say "wow yea i really was crazy".... but there's just no time. except for right about now....

updates:

the babies are still alive and healthy!!! yay!!! we've manage to not have a clue as to what we're doing and still keep 'em relatively happy and fully breathing! it's the little achivements that count. lol. no really they're doing good. they had their 4 month visit and both weighed in exactly 13 lbs even. the doctor told me that they were in the 50th percentile.. whatever that means. i don't have the head for that stuff. all i know is they're doing ok. and DROOLING ON EVERYTHING!!!! i don't understand how that much liquid can be produced by such tiny bodies!!! no more developements on the teeth other them they're in there and i think they're letting themselves be known to the babies. wonder how long it'll take to see the first one?

the babies are now grabbing everything...and then drooling on it... Gaia is half rolling over, while Luna is in no rush what so ever to move. Gaia full blown grabbed her feet today while on her back... i think this is one of the cutest things that babies do... and she just did it. i took pictures.... but i'm sitting in the dark typing this while the babies sleep (knock on wood) so can't really bring myself to move too much... gee... i wonder where Luna gets it from.. hmmm.....

ohhhhh... we bought an iMac. i'm in LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE with this machine. this is our first mac ever. granted, i don't really know what i'm doing... but so far so good. i feel like wrapping the imac in a blanket and putting it to bed in the crib with the babies... its just so damn pretty.

pablo has managed to make a bunch of small furniture for our tiny place. i'll have pictures up this week, I SWEAR. i *heart* him,... he's so talented and such a great father and husband.

what else... oh pablo's sister and niece and nefew will be coming to visit us in a couple months. i'm SOOOOOOO excited to meet them. his sister is amazing, and really got us through some of the hardest times when we first came home with the babies and i was FALLING APART. i think i feel very drawn to his family because (aside from many wonderful things about them) they are so unlike my own. they are close and they actually really talk to one another. they treat each other like equals. they're just really great. i'm very proud to be part of their family. OHHHH and i officially changed my last name to Pablo's. never thought i would ever want to change my last name, but i'm sooooo happy to do it. eeeee i love him!!!

hmmm what else.... if anyone wants to see pictures, you can check some out in the mean time at our .mac address... located here

ok.. im going to rip myself from this computer, as i have to wake up early tomorrow for work, and try to go to sleep while the babies give me a chance.

<3

Two Weeks Post Back-To-Work

Feels like these two weeks have flowwwwwwwwn by in a blink. Being back at work is nice in the sense of using my brain for other things... but I miss the babies A LOT. The days fly by while I'm there since 1) I go in SUPER early in order to get out in time to pick up the babies from the sitter (on mon & wed) and 2) Thanks to the pumping at work, the day is broken up into little parts.

I find I'm saddest while I'm pumping because I just sit there thinking about the babies. Sometimes I'm able to talk to Pablo (if the babies aren't giving him hell) while I pump and thats mucho nice, but sometimes he can't even make it to answer the phone. He's doing an amazing job with the babies. I think he really fully appreciates how absolutely difficult/wonderful it is to stay with them all day. Sometimes when he picks up he's all laughing because they're doing something cute,... and sometimes he sounds so stressed that he can't even talk to me on the phone because they just wont stop crying. He's an amazing father and an amazing husband and friend. We're so greatful to have him in our lives.

What else.... Gaia has started to grab onto things :) She'll lay in her crib and try to grab the little bears in her mobile... despite the fact that they're VERY far away... she'll just lay there fist clenched and arm extended.

Pablo is going to build a bunch of crazy and pretty shelving in the apartment to give us more room. He's happiest when he's building stuff... or sleeping. Though I don't know how he's gonna do it since the two "babies" have taken a liking to screaming and being held all day. I'll put up pictures when he's done :) when ever that may be.

OK... he's some video. <3

Gaia pulling Pablo's hair ;)


The babies in bed and Gaia trying to grab the bears


And finally a video with all of us in it... Including me basically topless. Nothing like becoming a mom and breastfeeding twins to get you over shyness. w/e, babies gotta eat!